When I was a baby I survive death, my case is 50-50 in the hospital and one in one thousand people can survive in my sickness that time, whenever my parents told me the story about it, I knew that they LOVE me. My mother prayed to God to heal me and save my life that time and her prayers is answered. Then LIFE this is my second chance living you. Since then the only childhood memories I can recall is when I’ am 5 years old onwards. I’ve been hospitalized again when I was 9 years old, it was the last time I been hospitalized and I’ve been trying my best and praying not to come back to hospital anymore.
LIFE my elementary days are fond of memories of my cousins as my playmates, my sister as the one that I look up too, my auntie as my disciplinarian, my father as a diplomat, the household as my hobbies, going to school as a must, watching, reading and playing as I love to do, and the one and the only friend I have met in my last year in my elementary (Grade 6) which also became my first ever best friend.
LIFE in my high school days I started to change my timid personality a little, I start to have some friends, first year I have “barkada” and I enjoy high school life, barkada quarrel, different personality’s conflict and crushes and so on. Since it easily change when I was in my 2nd year in high school I don’t have “barkada” anymore, were not in the same section anymore but we stayed friends not like it was before, I have friends in my 2nd year and start to be competitive a little and show off some of my abilities but it change in my 3rd year going to school I felt I’ am going because it was needed. I want to mess my whole class just because I can’t catch up in my geometry class, I don’t want to hate MATH but I felt Math is the one who hate me so it is kind so hard for me to reconcile. My 4th year I start to comeback in track again, I have friends and I do participate in school activities and found myself liking it a lot and enjoying it. That is the time it starting to sink in to my mind that it is the last year of my high school life so I must enjoy it. I’ am obliging myself because I don’t want to regret that I missed half of my life because I don’t enjoy high school. I don’t have typical high school life. I travel in a lot of phases in high school. I’ve experience insecurity, self-conscious and deals with problems a lot “family, school, financial and self problems” but still high school life is full of fond memories I can’t forget especially the “kalokohan” my friends done to me and the “kalokohan” I’ve done with them.
LIFE in my college life this one struck me until now, since I still do not graduate from my college while I’ am writing this but College experience is a vast, many personalities and character I’ve met. Self development and maturity is a requirement. I learn many things not only written in the books but through experience in you-LIFE itself.
LIFE I don’t graduated with medals when I’m in elementary, I only have a ribbon which is the “most behave” I remember because I was too shy back then as if speaking a word is needed a payment so I just don’t speak to anybody that certain moment of my life specifically when I’ am at school.
LIFE I don’t graduated with honors in high school, I only have my diploma as a prove that I fulfill all the requirements needed in my high school years, and my CAT certificate that I manage to fulfill the requirements in my civil service.
LIFE I still don’t have my diploma in College and still not able to wear that black toga in graduation.
LIFE I’ am not a sporty person, I don’t have specific sports that I excel or I’ am good at, don’t even play for tournaments and events but I do play sports specifically “badminton” just for fun, the sure thing is I’ am a watcher in each tournament. I’ am also a cheerer, I watch and support teams even if I don’t basically know them personally or didn’t know them by any chance even in names.
LIFE I’ am not a singer who belt songs with higher tone but I do sings when the only purpose is to have fun with other people who also want to have fun same as I’ am but not to entertain other people.
LIFE I’ am not a painter, I can only paint when I’ am in the mood to do so. I can’t even draw things just out of my imagination but I can draw when I have a picture I can imitate its image.
LIFE I’m an observer, a watcher, a listener, a reader and then a writer….
LIFE I choose what I’ am right now, I don’t have stable higher paid job, I don’t have nurturing happy love life yet but I’m HAPPY because I love what I’m doing….
HAPPY my FAMILY LOVES ME and I do feel it everyday…
HAPPY cause I LOVE writing it makes me free…
HAPPY cause even if I’ am uncertain to my future GOD is there to back me up….
HAPPY cause my life is written by the most, greatest and mighty writer in the whole living things that exist and higher that existence of you-LIFE itself, this author is GOD…
HAPPY because I wake up everyday without finding what I’m missing, with out looking to others what I don’t have that others have…
LIFE since in my younger days, I already master the “art of not caring” of the unnecessary things I don’t have to care…
This makes me who I’ AM right now. I been flourished by the TIME, teach ME by experience, learned from the people itself, listen to many ideas, read even the “not include to best seller book” list, open my mind to possibilities, reach out my heart to kindness and care about GOD words and teachings.
LIFE your always giving me reason to be courageous and be tough all the time even the weather is fine and the sea is so calm, you always make me realize that I should never let my guard down in the things that I have to be aware but you always reminding me LIFE to handle you easy and cool down myself by the things that I don’t have to worry for the things that I really, really want will come to me naturally as long as what I want is deserve to be mine. ^-^
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